Waiting ....Being Mummy by Candid Candy

What's the longest time you've ever waited for someone? I remember waiting for a prospect for 3 hours at a coffeeshop just to "force" him to turn up...and he did.

Now as I wait for my baby to be born, there's a mix feeling of anticipation, excitment, boredom, worry, wonder...When I had Isaac and I had to go for C-section at a specific date, everyhing was planned and systematic.

Now I wait with wonder, just waiting for the signs to show up, can't plan anything far into weeks and filling my days by catching up on my reading, watching movies and serials.

The most uncomfortable part for me was not being able to move as fast as I'd like to be. Now every step makes me feel like a big pail filled with water and climbing up stairs is like dragging a 10kg of rice with me. And there's those aches and pains here and there. And also having to slow down my work activities, losing out on some in career opportunities.

A friend asked me the other day, don't I feel regret by losing out these opportunities cos sometimes opportunities come by only once (he knew my career plans this year)?

But I enjoy motherhood, it gives me a chance to be a better person, live my childhood again, and children gives unconditional love and joy. To me, no achievements can beat the feeling. That in itself is an achievement to me already.

Having this baby is a concious choice and decision me and my husband made. And I was pregnant not long after you guys prayed for me. I knew it's a gift from God, knowing many among my peers have difficulty conceiving.

So everything else can wait. After all, how many more children can we afford to have?

So I take this period of time to slow down and smell the flowers :-)

I look forward to seeing my baby's face and getting back my lifestyle again.